Self-therapy

A lot has been happening since my last **serious** update. 

S came to Bangalore on 24^th Mar and we met as a family after 8 loooong months. Wow…with all the ups and downs (mostly emotionally) & twists and turns, I think we were pretty strong for the entire duration of our separation. Although it was extremely difficult for us to go all mushy-mushy the moment we met as every time one tries to hug, there is one little monster converting it promptly into a big family hug. Am I complaining? No, not at all because this monster is and will always be the best part of our marriage J

My niece came all over from Hyderabad to spend his after-exam vacation with Shreya and it was house-full for the whole week. Had a proper family time for one week and an awesome birthday celebration with in-laws and S and then left for a short trip to Deogarh to visit Ashram and also to meet my parents. Ma retired on 31^st Mar (this deserves a separate post altogether) and we left Bangalore on 8^th of Apr for Canada.

'Break from work' was something I have been thinking of from quite some time now and finally it happened and I am so thankful that it happened. Wanted to take a break to feel being at home with Shreya and S, to create some wonderful memories of Shreya's childhood because she has only one childhood and it is my job to create the moments she will look back on when she has a child of her own, to be the first person to witness all the many other precious 'first' which she is ticking off so very frequently.

I am trying to do every single bit of things which I otherwise miss in my busy life back home like a lazy morning cuddle with Shreya, sipping a leisurely cup of "hubby-special" coffee, cooking a lovely meal and relishing every bite of it, a warm hair oil massage, a long shower and sometimes those mommy-daughter bubble game, bonding with other moms in Shreya’s school, doing a crafty thing together or spending some quite time at the library without keeping a tab on clock, blissful afternoon nap, evening stroll with S or just sitting by the window with S over a hot mug of coffee whenever the toddler decides to entertain herself, enjoy some moments of absolute freedom and pleasure. Freedom of mind and spirit.

How ethereal the whole experience is and how you feel like you have just discovered a slice of heaven and how it fills you with an unexplained longing to make the experience linger and how you feel so totally at peace with the world while you're at it.

Yes, this includes all that I had always wanted to do and this is what I call self-therapy.